All my life I have had a job I started working when I was 16 I have done almost everything from working in a restaurant,from being a quality inspector for a aerospace company even telemarketing. My point is that Iv always have been the type of person to be out and about but this last year I got sick.I came down with the flu and it turned in to a lung infection so I ended up going to the hospital only to find out that I had mucs pluges in my lungs. that means that instead of the mucs leaving my body by coughing it up or other ways. It sits in my lungs and hardens up then plugs up my air ways. Then you have to have them removed ever so often. plus I have sever allergic asmstha that mean I'm allergic to anything from dust to the weather. and at my last doctor Appointment he told me that It looks like I'm getting the being stages of COPD. Anyway my point is now I stay at home all day by myself and its driving me crazy. I really get depressed about this I don't know what to do with myself Iv always had a purpose in life rather it was working or going to school or even taking care of my girls like cooking and doing house work.Now my kids are helping me by doing house work plus my oldest has to cook sometimes. I watch my husband leave to go to work every day besides Sunday.I realize that I'm not even doing my share to help out in that department .I have filed for SSI and Medicaid but that's a ongoing battle if you know what I mean I have to wait over year to even get a hearing date on my SSI and on my Medicaid they turned me down then I had to go to a hearing on that and I'm still waiting on a decision about it.It just seems sometimes I get upset about my life and I take it out on the people that I care for. Then I have go back tell them I'm sorry for being a but head. I feel by me doing this I'm driving everyone away and I don't mean to .OK I'm going to stop here because I can keep rambling on about my life and I don't want to bore you with the details anymore.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
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I can totally relate to you. I've not been that sick but I understand about being stuck at home. Just keep praying and everything will work out in the end. Call me sometime if you ever want to talk.
Sorry to hear that, Stacy! I hope you'll get better and better step by step.
As to staying home...I'm also unemployed right now and I must say that blogging has helped my life. Blogging has helped me found my voice. I find that I can make a difference here, too...by making someone smile, by listening to someone, by encouraging someone, by sharing my experiences and fears, by sharing positive thoughts...so rest assured that you'll find your way later on. For me, blogging is one of my purposes in life right now. :-))))
HUGE HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sorry to hear about the problems you've been going through. I hope that you are able to get the help you need.
You know, sometimes when we are sick, I think of it as a way of God's saying to us, "My child, you need some rest, so I'm giving it to you." :-D
My Dad had just recently retired and it took him 6 months to get used to it. We'd all told him to enjoy his retirement, but having worked his entire life and then having no work at all isn't easy, I guess...so I can sort of imagine how you feel. But don't worry...this storm shall pass...in the meantime, just take good care of yourself first: body and soul...the rest will follow. :-))))
You know me better then any one here on blogger besides michelle. I have been a stay at home mom for years, but I always had your children to care for and other children. Now that I have no children and Shawn is growing up so fast I find it hard to make it threw each day without crying. It does get better and God will show you where you are to be just like he will show me. We just have to be patient. God Bless.
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